One step forward or two steps back~??

Yes::~
I'm havin' a dilemma::~
Had a late night chat again wid my love in Johor::~
Started wid an argument bout whether I shud go to Cheer 2007::~
told him it wuz da last time Chyi's gonna get to watch Cheer wid me::~
Cuz I' goin' to Aus next year::~
He got all upset bout me going to Aus::~
I want to be with him~!!
but all that motivational talk which I get froms my parents, teachers and frends have gotten into my head::~
so...
Pursuing my future is my 1st priority::~
I love him::~
and if his love for me is strong enough,
I'm hoping he'll wait for me::~
Cuz I would::~
but he has dis image of me which i dun like::~
he thinks I won't be loyal::~
& that just broke my heart::~
Well,
I'll just have to prove my love to him somore::~
now, i'm just worried to agree to him::~
Cuz I dun wanna prove my love to him that way::~
I dun wanna be like just any other gal::~
and I'm worried about how he'll think of me in the future::~
*sigh*

For us...

Had a late night chat wid my love...
Some truths were told...
Deeper understandings happened...
T'was my 1st time knowing hidden social behaviours...
Which I understand more of...

Gossip is a bad thing...
We cant live wid it and we cant live widout it...
Crapp~

Well,
I have a part in this relationship...
& I'll be responsible for it...
I'll mature to suit his needs...
To me ,
Its a part of growing up...
Learning...
Adjusting...
all that...

But it'll need time...
I need time...
Old habits die hard...
Forgive me if I'm abit stubborn...

I just want to be his perfect one...

My baby's goin to Johor~!!!

*sniffle*
Its 4am now::~
Juz finished my Genting post::~
Had a chat wid Simon b4 dat...
Well,
he's leaving me going to Johor...
to work::~
gain QS experience::~

I want him bacckk~!!!!!

30 days is a long long time::~
and my hols is supposed to be filled::~
wid him::~
and now~??
*sigh*