She's right sometimes::~

I dunno::~
Maybe it's true::~
I thought I can give up my all for him::~
But I guess I'm wrong::~
You can't change who I am::~
I Love Fashion::~
You can't make me give it up::~
Not like I'm making you give up DotA right~???
Ish ish ish::~
I'd understand if you wanna make sure I'm protecting my assets from public views and stuff::~
I'm learning to do exactly that and master that art::~
But just b'cuz I wear fancier::~
It's a crime~???
FYI :: I don't think my outfits are sexy::~
Believe me::~
It's all over the market::~
I know I'm in Malaysia::~
Where the culture is freaking closed minded::~
We're in an Islamic country for goodness sake::~
T-shirts and jeans is so not me k~???
Please understand::~
It's like telling dudes to wear PINK HOT PANTS all year round::~
So, our culture is "practising" T-shirt & jeans in all it's colleges::~
& I know that I'm supposed to concentrate on my studies while I'm in college::~
Who says I'm not doing that in my fancier asembles~???
And the whole guy gawping at girl thing::~
It freaking happens all the time::~
It's in every guy's chemistry::~
Okay::~
I admit that I don't like guys to gawp/stare/look at me as though I'm from outer universe::~
But why let their stares stop me from what I've loved~???
I wear what I like to please myself::~
My need to have an image which is fairly better than average for self confidence::~
I'm sorry but I've my limits::~
and this is one of them::~
I know you care::~
and I'm a lil off* with the protecting myself thingy::~
working on it::~
But reasons beyond that::~
Is beyond me::~

Love,
Mel