One step forward or two steps back~??

Yes::~
I'm havin' a dilemma::~
Had a late night chat again wid my love in Johor::~
Started wid an argument bout whether I shud go to Cheer 2007::~
told him it wuz da last time Chyi's gonna get to watch Cheer wid me::~
Cuz I' goin' to Aus next year::~
He got all upset bout me going to Aus::~
I want to be with him~!!
but all that motivational talk which I get froms my parents, teachers and frends have gotten into my head::~
so...
Pursuing my future is my 1st priority::~
I love him::~
and if his love for me is strong enough,
I'm hoping he'll wait for me::~
Cuz I would::~
but he has dis image of me which i dun like::~
he thinks I won't be loyal::~
& that just broke my heart::~
Well,
I'll just have to prove my love to him somore::~
now, i'm just worried to agree to him::~
Cuz I dun wanna prove my love to him that way::~
I dun wanna be like just any other gal::~
and I'm worried about how he'll think of me in the future::~
*sigh*

For us...

Had a late night chat wid my love...
Some truths were told...
Deeper understandings happened...
T'was my 1st time knowing hidden social behaviours...
Which I understand more of...

Gossip is a bad thing...
We cant live wid it and we cant live widout it...
Crapp~

Well,
I have a part in this relationship...
& I'll be responsible for it...
I'll mature to suit his needs...
To me ,
Its a part of growing up...
Learning...
Adjusting...
all that...

But it'll need time...
I need time...
Old habits die hard...
Forgive me if I'm abit stubborn...

I just want to be his perfect one...

My baby's goin to Johor~!!!

*sniffle*
Its 4am now::~
Juz finished my Genting post::~
Had a chat wid Simon b4 dat...
Well,
he's leaving me going to Johor...
to work::~
gain QS experience::~

I want him bacckk~!!!!!

30 days is a long long time::~
and my hols is supposed to be filled::~
wid him::~
and now~??
*sigh*

I'm not perfect but I'll try to be::~ 4 u~

Simon called...
Well, actually he called 1st and I left my phone downstairs...
So, I called him back...
Sry baby...
We chatted bout stuff...
::really, I dun mind goin' to CC~XD learnin' 2 enjoy it~ hopefully not addicted::
::and im sry I've been so "tey" lately *muaxsxs*::
::I'll promise I'll understand you better,
but if I can make things better, let me K~??::
bout da stuff we chatted,
da main topic wuz bout dat nite where he's gotten abit upset~
and I wuz abit lost for words~
(workin' on my gf skills)
He sed he went to someone else for help and comfort~
(when I cudn't provide any)
Well,
I dint mind much really...
( Its not his fault im such a dope in comforting ppl )
*sigh*
My ideal way to comfort him is to get myself next to him...
hold him close...
kiss him...
and tell him to hang on...
and that I'll always be there 4 him...
unfortunately::~
on da phone,
im literally HOPELESS::~
sry baby::~
Trying harder my best...
luv u...

"...I'll love noone else but you::~

..."
That wuz wad I posted on my friendster::~
Hope he'll understand::~

Got a scare when he asked me that question in his phone::~

*haihz...*
I'm soo lost in my thoughts::~

Kena FFK 3 times dis week~!!! =(

Ish ISh ISH~!!!

1st::
my bf (boy friend) FFK me on Tuesday~ he overslept ~cuz teman me whole nite ~ boil telephone porridge ::~ XD

2nd::
my bf (best friend) FFK me on Wednesday ~ she'd supposed to come after skool ~ but tak jadi cuz her class canceled d ~ (T^T)

3rd::
now~ my bf (boy friend) FFK me today ~ Thursday ~ he's STILL sleeping ~ I'm gonna die ~ raining somore ~ cannot go eat ~ (T.T) ~hungry::~ Later gt undang test~ *panics* ~ wish me luck ~

In need of love~from him

Simon's so sweet...
sent me heart dissolving messages-
My fav 1:
Baby... I miss u... I can't sleep.. Keep thinking bout u... Called u but You didn't pick up... Saddy.... Love u... Muakz...
*giggles*
XD...
luv u too~ (tons)